This morning I felt a strong desire to meditate outside. I took my son to a park that is across the street from where we are staying. My son loves to be in the midst of nature. I took him once through the entire park, then settled with him by the lakeside that is centered in the middle of the park. There, I closed my eyes and begin to breathe, chanting Om. I heard my son chimming in, so together we chanted Om over and over again. I was taken aback by how well my one year old son could continue to chant with me; and this seemed to bring him peace. Our voices seemed to melt together as the sound of Om permeated the energy surrounding us. We chanted together until I noticed that my son had fallen asleep. My heart was filled with such a wonderful feeling of Contentment and Peace. This was the first time I was able to share in meditation with my son. And I realised he joined me of his own valition. It shocked me that I had never considered before that my son would want to meditate with me. But now I will allow him to join me so we can create a tradition for our family.

I feel that my son and I connected Spiritually in a new way. And I look forward to continuing to meditate with him.

It is amazing to me how simple it is to connect with my son's Soul. He is still so much more connected to the Source than I am. His incarnation is fresh, so he can communicate with me if I am open to hear him. And with the new lease on Life that I have, and my new appreciation for this wonderful experience I am here to share, it makes my Heart smile to become aware that my son is intune with me as well. It makes any doubt about what I am here to do disappear when I know I can share being One with the Source with my son.

This morning in my email was a wonderful quote from Corinthians 13:4-8. I believe that Jesus' incarnation here was a great reminder of how much we need to remember our True Purpose in any Realm of Existence. I would like to share this quote with you because it is a perfect postscript to my morning.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Namaste

Today I had an abortion. Because I nearly died having my son, this pregnancy was dangerous to me. So, I made the decision with a heavy heart.

A friend who is psychic had told me months earlier that I would have a little girl. I knew that this pregnancy was that little girl. In the operating room, the doctor gave me the chance to see the baby via ultrasound before he preformed the procedure. I looked at her. She was a tiny creature, no bigger than a coin. I cried and silently apologised to her Soul for not being able to carry her to term. The doctor told me that since my blood pressure was 149/111 at 3 months pregnant, it was good for me to abort this child. He told me that if I had tried to carry her to term, that I would have experienced life threatening seizures that would have made the ones I experienced with my son seem tame. I knew then that to save my life, I was being forced to end hers.

After the procedure, my first and only thought was my son. I hugged him and cried in the waiting room after being escorted by the nurse. My mother was there to watch my son during the procedure. I have never been so grateful to her in my life.

This experience showed me a what a wonderful gift from the Source my son really is and how I now know that my purpose is to be a Spiritually conscious mother for this bundle of potential. My son, whom I almost died while bringing into this world, is now my Raison D'Etre (my reason for being). And I must treasure every moment I have with him because my life since his birth is a second chance. To waste a single moment would fly in the face of True Spiritual Love and all that THAT stands for.

Now that I know better, I am obligated to do better. And I have made this my focal point for all decisions in my life from this moment on. My life was spared for the Eternal Pure Love that I know when I look into my son's eyes.

How could there be anything more precious then this?

Namaste

Once again, as I step back, the Universe has provided a much needed procedure for me. And I was even given the funds to do so by a local non-profit organisation. In the matter of an hour I had manifested this. And just in time. This procedure is necessary because if it were not taken care of, my life would be in danger due to a pre-existing medical condition. So for this I am truly grateful because my son needs me. I have to be here for him and now this is a weight off of my shoulders. And all because I trusted in the Source and allowed the help I need to be brought to my doorstep.

This whole process of letting my Ego go so that I may be a True conduit for the Universe has brought me blesing after blessing. When I was doubtful, my Guide reassured me to hold on and comforted me when I was emotionally down. Friends and family have come to my aid. Even my strained relationship with my mother is slowly repairing. After some fighting, we have begun to communicate honestly and openly. I count this blessing and do not take for granted how much work it has taken us to get to this point. And being sympathetic to her has changed me; made me more aware of my own tendancies toward quick judgment and false accusation. So, in a two-fold process I am learning about myself through someone else's eyes. It is very humbling and very necessary for my growth as a loving and compassionate person.

I am recording these events so that others may see that if we are patient and vigilant, the Universe will answer all of our prayers!

Namaste

I believe Peace is a choice. Regardless of your circumstances, you can choose to be peaceful or not. As we know from The Secret, it is our thoughts and reactions that create our perceptions; and our perceptions create our World. At every moment we can choose to be peaceful and emit that frequency. This will change the immediate environment. So how powerful can we be if many choose Peace and emit that frequency into the World?

We are the Creators of our circumstances. It is simple. It always has been. Choose to be peaceful and observe how you can immediately create that Peace you seek.

Namaste

Saint Theresa's Prayer

May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.

The Universe gave me a wonderful book that was the answer to my prayers. I have been floundering, trying to find a way to get intouch with my True Self so that I can actively become a Creator of my Life. I am no longer content with being swayed by others and circumstances that I have allowed to dictate what happens to me. I have asked the Universe for guidence on taking back the conrol over my life and for help in changing my self perception so that I can Create a better future NOW for myself and my son. Well, yesterday, as my morning Tarot reading predicted, I got my answer. And since then I have never felt so empowered, so at peace, so excited about my life and future in my life!

If there are any out there that are living a Fictional existence void of the True Self, I encourage you to pick up the book, Self Matters by Philip McGraw. It is surprisingly Spiritual and definately the tool that will help you refocus your life to understand who you are, what you want and give you the empowerment to attain it.

This is your life!

Live Authentically!

Namaste

Last night I litterally travelled all over the place. Astral travel is something I have not done consciously for a long time. But last night was an exception. I was shown all sorts of new and exciting places, people and events. It was like jumping from one party to the next.

And when I did my reading for the morning, I was blessed with more insight as to why I was taken to all these different planes of Existence. My Tarot yeilded that Queen of Pentacles, The Magician, and the Tower. It was a wonderful reading for me because it explained to me what the Unvierse was trying to show me last night. I am at the peak of my Power as I move further down my Spiritual path. I am consciously creating in both my waking and dreaming lives. This is a big progression for me. It makes me proud of myself that I have allowed the Universe to flow directly through me. It reaffirms all my decisions of late and strengthens my believe that I am finally traveling down the Path I incarnated for.

I am finally feeling empowerment for the first time in my life. I have surrounding me a sense of Peace and Happiness unlike any I have known before. These next few months for me will yeild a clear understanding of who I am and what I will be able to create; which is limited only by my perceptions. And only now am I understanding that as I realise the control is solely mine or myself, and allow the rest to unfold; as I enact my Divine nature as a Creator and recognise that in action (instead of reaction) I am fulfilling my role and purpose for my life, I am coming into the knowledge that my life is mine for the taking, not to be afriad of any experience (good or bad) and find the Source's call in all so that my perception is a direct path of Love.

Namaste

Last night I watched a programme called 30 Days. On this episode, a devoute Christian was asked to become a Muslim for a month. His struggle between his faith and accepting anothr mode of thinking was truly interesting to watch.

At one point in the programme, the Christian was discussing the diference between Allah and Jesus with a Muslim. The Christian had an issue with praying with the othr Muslims because he saw it as an afront to his god. The Muslim remarked so beautifully. He said, "your god died on a cross. God cannot die. If God died, who is running the show. Your god is a dead god. We believe that god is eternal and beyond this physical death."

That statement made my heart smile. I teared up because I would have never thought such a progressive Spiritual ideal would be uttered from someone who adheres to an organised religion (of any nature). But I was blown away and could not take my eyes off the television. I stayed awake until 2 am watching this programme.

I understood from this television show that the truth of our Universe, God and our Divine True Self is alive and well in some of he world's most controversial religions. It takes an open mind to accept the truths written there and go beyond the hype to get to the meat of it all. But once that is accomplished, Enlightenment awaits for All.

I am contented in my heart for programmes like this one. Primetime television can be a cleansing of the Soul and an awakening of new thoughts. We can change our perspective simply by allowing someone else to share their lives with us. And if we ar able to experience them without judgement, we can find further evidence that we are all connected and all One. We just have to be willing to go beyond our own comfort zone.

I am changed for the better from this programme.

Namaste

If my joy is divine and I trust in a higher power when things are going well, then my suffering must also be divine.

-- Wayne Dyer, The Sacred Self

Today I learned exactly what this quote means. I have been blesed with the opportunity to focus on myself and self-discovery without much else to worry about. And I have exceeded all of my personal expectations thus far. However, today my faith has been shaken. I turned to this book and my next chapter was on the subject I am currently struggling with. Thank you to the Divine Creator for answering my prayer for guidence! It told me to banish doubt. To acknowledge it, feel it, then let it pass. To manifest, you must have an unwavering faith in God. You must know God.

This restriction has shown up in my life to teach me something. When I get the lesson, I will then see my inner faith manifesting itself in positive ways again. I will bless this occurance rather than curse it, knowing always that the ways of God will sometimes be mysterious to me.

--Wayne Dyer, The Sacred Self

I understand now that it is a test when obsticles come into the way of my manifestation. I understand that there is a lesson for me to learn. As I grow in Spiritual Awareness of myself and the divine nature of God, I must allow the Universe to unfold as it will. I am a Creator in harmony with God. My purpose is always fulfilled even as I fail to see how some occurances come onto play or make sense with the direction I am choosing to go. However, if I am constant in my thoughts and allow doubt to enter without judgment, I am realining myself with my manifestation. As long as I remain on the same frequency, I can remain on the same Path. I must remember to feel good and not entertain Ego when thoughts arise. I must reaffirm to myself that my desire is Righteous in nature and in accord with the Universe. As I accept my tests and thank God for the opportunity to display my faith, I am bringing that which I want closer to me.

I will refuse to judge this and instead will know that in some way that I do not understand at this moment, I will know why this happened as it did.

I will trust in God and the enrgy that is in everything and know that this too is in divine order, even though I do not like it in this moment.

--Wayne Dyer, The Sacred Self

Today I learned the difference between believing in and knowing God.

Namaste

This morning my prayer for insight and guidence was answered. As I am reading in The Scared Self, by Wayne Dyer, the next chapter was exactly what I needed to learn about to help me progress forward.

In my life, nothing ever goes wrong.

--Nisargadatta Maharaj

I am learning how to be my own observer and in that become a better observer of all. First, I must allow detachment from my emotions; to allow them to be felt, but not consumed unless I choose that they help me facilitate a positive manifestation in my life. In acknowledging them, I am not passing judgment, but recognising that this too is part of the process. This focus on observation helps me to aline with my Higher Self, a part of me that is not affected by this plane, but understands that these are lessons to be learned and it is how I choose toward action or reaction that defines my ability to pass or fail. And even in failure, there is peace because I can always come back to this lesson and learn from it. I am aware that this is where Is-ness comes into play. It is here, in this revelation, that I am connected to my Higher Self and co-creating, even as I am in the midst of the process. I know that I am in harmony with the order of the Universe.

Namaste

The Ego pursues extrnal forces to find completion. It entraps by saying that these things will free you if they are aquired. This is a Lie!!! Nothing but the unwavering understanding of who you really are (a divine God incarnate), what your purpose is (to serve others through Love) and where you will return to (to the Source; God) will satisfy. Everything else is an external, temporal fixation.

If we say someone did something to wrong us, we are in an Ego based thought of superiority and ignoring our divine Onenes with God. We are allowing the Ego to entrap us.

Authentic fredom is internal and beyond the comings and goings of this temporal plane of existence. It is a clear knowledge (not belief) of your True Self (your Higher Self) that will allow God to work through you. If nothing is wrong, as we know it never is because everything is in order with the Universe, then your detachment from external forces will aid you in becoming a conduit of God.

God does not make mistakes. God holds no account of wrongs. You do not owe God anything. You do not owe anyone anything. Those who use Ego to entrap others through their belief that they have been wronged have not discovered their True Higher Self. They exist to serve their Ego because they cannot conceive that they are all they will ever need. They are basing their self-worth on others and they will always be let down. They expect others to give them meaning and purpose because they have none for themselves. They have not come to the knowledge that they are a Divine spark of God, that there is no separateness, and that they are the creators of their lives.

Inside of us is everything we need. External forces are temporal and finite. They are a quick fix, but leave you wanting more. They satisfy for the moment, but in your heart, you know that there is something more that you aren't achieving. When you let go of externals and recognise your True Divine Nature, you can then enjoy the externals for what they are because you are no longer attached to them. When you give up need for want, you are able to let go, let God and love regardless because you know that you are not defined by what others think you should be doing. You can focus on co-creating with God for the benefit of all and let go of separateness.

The entities we know as our Guides are actually our Higher Self. This means that it is really us and has been all along. There is no separateness other than what Ego creates to keep us in the lie so that we will remain attached to temporal things. We have within us all the love, acceptance, forgiveness, devotion that we need. We do not have to look else where.

A quote from A Course of Miracles will explain this better than I can.

Your mission is simple. You are asked to live so as to demonstrate that you are not an ego."

Namaste

Last night my son had a hard time going to sleep. I stayed with him, watching him bounce around his crib and playing. I became so inense in my observation that I began to notice that I could feel exactly what he has feeling and thinking as he played. I noticed that he does not think in terms of thoughts, but rather in frequencies which translate into emotions. I also became aware of the fact that he is still so connected to the otherside that he literally has no comprehension of consequence. He does everything simply for the experience without judgement of it. He is in complete connection to his Higher Self at all times. When his body takes over (when he needs food or attention), once he has satisfied his body, he is free to return back to his connected state with his Higher Self.

This opened my eyes to understanding him more fully. It caused me to be aware of how he processes information on this plane. And how I must be cautious in teaching him fear. Most parnts use fear to teach their children to behave, follow direction, become inline with the world's expectations. Once I realised how precious my son's connection to his Highr Self is, I was immediately concerned for how I am teaching him to fear.

I meditated after my son fell asleep on this revelation. As I am learning to move from Love and not from ego, I have been shown that these affects will be directly absorbed by my son as I raise him. I thanked the Universe for this wonderful knowledge and made a mental note to always come from a loving place; even when I must discipline my son.

As I am blessed to have this chance to reconnect myself with my Higher Self, and as I am chooing kindness before serving my ego, I am also a direct influence of the ability of my son to retain his connection with his Higher Self as he grows and experiences this plane of Existence. It has opened me up even farther and elevated my Path.

I am grateful and blessed more than I have ever been.
I would like to add a quote that has humbled me.
Your mission is simple. You are asked to live so as to demonstrate that you are not an ego.
--A Course in Miracles

Namaste

Worry looks around, sorry looks back, Faith looks up.

--Anonymous

Ego is a strange bedfellow. It can be a driving force in our life that tears everything apart. It can lie like no one else as we are rittled with doubt, fear, and guilt. It tries to take even our connection to God from us because the way of our Higher Self is the diametric opposite of ego. It keeps us seeing ourself as a body that has needs. It tells us that there is nothing more, so get what we can. It shuns unconditional Love from us because unconditional Love does not fit into ego's plan of consuming. It creates addictions to trick us into thinking that there is something more outside of us and it is more powerful than what is inside of us.

Seek spiritual riches within. What you are is much greater than anyone or anything else you have yearned for."

--Paramahansa Yogananda

These words have profoundly affected me as I am working to allow my Higher Self to come forth and push ego back. I pray whoever reads this blog, please take this quote and meditate on its meaning in your life.

Namaste

Today I discovered how wonderful manifestation can truly be. In the morning I read my Tarot, receiving the Ace of Cups, the Queen of Pentacles and the Hermit. I felt confident in my being prepared for the day and reading to listen to the wisdom of the Universe as I knew it would be shown to me.

My day started out at the doctor's office for a check up aftr my abortion. The nurse practioner who came to examine me was from Washington State. She understood what I meant when I said that I missed home, how the people and environment was so inspiring and that a higher sense of life was known there. She looked at me with a twinkle in her eyes and said, "You have wonderful things waiting for you there. You will be happy when you get home."

I knew I was being spoken to from a higher source. My skin went into tingles as she said this to me. She was completely in love with my son (as most people are) and to him said, "You are the most beautiful soul I have ever met."

I then took my brother out for an afternoon. We met up with an Israelie woman who was telling us about the lowest point on the Earth; the Dead Sea. As we were walking away, my brother remarked that she was wrong, that the lowest point was somewhere else. I said that we would have to look it up when we got home.

That moment was forgotten. At home, my brother and I decided to watch Transformers: the Movie. At the end of the film, Optimus Prime mentions placing a very precious item at the lowest point in the Earth to hide it. He said he was taking this thing to the Mariana Trench. I immeditately remembered the woman and the Dead Sea comment. And I laughed out loud because I knew that manifestation is as simple as having a question answered while watching a blockbuster movie. How the Universe shows its clever humour in revealing itself.

As I realise my True Self, I am able to recognise even the smallest of miracles in our created lives.

Last night, while thinking of a good friend of mine, and reading a past text message of love and encouragement, she intrrupted my reverie by texting me again with more words of support. I laughed at this manifestation and gleefully text her back, thanking her for reminding me of my True Self (the Creator).

With just the happy memory of my friend, this emotional frequency was enougfh to bring her loving spirit to me. I felt my divine nature in that moment. I winked at the stratusphere and thanked God for giving me encouragement when I was beginning to be comsumed by sorrow and needed to be reminded of how everything is natural, right and in its own time. I needed to be reminded of how much love was there for me. And I needed to see that struggle toward a goal, if used in harmony with the Universe, is more powerful than anything else known to Man. It is this force that propells the moment of Om into actualised Creation.

It is all around,

and you will see it,

as you are observing your life.

Namaste

Tonight I witnessed something from my son that had never occured to me.

My son has been obessed with his Uncle's cat for the past several weeks. At first I was concerned because the cat is not declawed and my son does not understand consequence. I tried to just keep them apart. But recently I have allowed my son to explore petting the cat. And so far, the cat has been gracious about these experiements.

Tonight, my son attempted to pet the cat. I watched from a close distance as my son reached out his hand, then stopped. The cat looked very nervous. My son, being the wonderful Spiritual Creator he is, then leaned in to do what we call "giving the Third Eye". It is when my son touches the centre of his forehead to anothr person's forehead, right where the Third Eye is, so that they meet. My son has given me his Third Eye many times and each time it is a clear exchange of energy.

When my son leaned in to give the cat his Third Eye, something even more amazing happened. The cat actually leaned her head close to his and for a moment they touched. I was so shocked I had to cover my mouth. I wanted to react in joy, but I also did not want to interfere so that the moment would not be interrupted.

As I witnessed this, I felt instantly enlightened. So, my son, in his infinate wisdom was able to see the cat's Soul and communicate that way instead of trying to get her to understand his squeals and not so clear attempts at speaking. My son went right for what is real and natural. He communicated with the cat in the forum he is still so used to: using his Soul instead of his body.

The cat then seemed relaxed, but clearly not ready to be petted. My son walked away, still looking satisfied at this exchange. And whatever they talked about I do not know, but I think there might be a new understanding between them.

Pay attention to your children!!!

They are closer connected to the Source than you and if you observe them, you can learn alot.

Namaste

The fruit of love is srvice, which is compassion in action."

--Mother Teresa

Today I received a blessing from the Universe. My very good friend called me to tell me of her troubles. She is experiencing physical manifestations due to her internal conflicts. Now, she is faced with the possiblity of sugery for what could become a cancerous problem. As I listened to her with love, I became aware of her need for expression. She has internalized her feelings for so long, they are manifesting in her body. And as we spoke, she became aware of this conclusion as well; without my prompting.

She asked me how I am doing, to seguway the conversation. I told her how I am learning to be a conscious observer of my surroundings and how I am focusing on love and service. I gave her a recent example of how I am inacting these truths in my life. My friend was thrilled to hear of my transformation. She felt encouraged. I laughed and said, "Hell, if I can do this, anyone can."

At the end of our conversation, my friend remarked to me that she is reading The Secret. I almost jumped out of my skin with joy. I told her how wonderful it was that she has attracted this book to herself and invited her to watch the movie version with me and my mother. She graciously accepted the invitation.

I write this because it never ceases to amaze me how the Universe brings insight to those who are searching. When we become the student, the teacher will appear, as the Zen proverb says. And it is so true!!!

I am reminded of another quote that I want to share with you.

Man may have a nonmaterial consciousness capable of influencing matter."

--Eugene Wigner, Nobel Peace Prize Winner

We do have a consciousness capable of influencing matter. It is that intangible force we may call our Higher Self, or whatever name you have for it. We are a spiritual having a human experience. And as I observe more often than I interfere, I am reminded of this fact repeatedly.

Be inspired to show the world that our call as conduits of the Source is to be of service through loving action. Be the change that you seek to find in the world so that others may be inspired to do the same.

Namaste

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be
-- Anna Louise Strong

Choose Love over everything in this World.

Be of service to others.

When you have the choice to be right or be kind, be kind.

Love yourself enough to do what is right and not what feels good.

Let go of everything that binds you for more energy is spent fighting than Loving.

Protect those little souls entrusted to you by God for they depend on your Love and Guidence.

Make a conscious effort to forgive those who wrong you.

Hold no grudge for nothing is wrong in this Perfect Universe.

In all things, be loving to show those who do not understand how wonderful this life can be.

Accept the lessons and learn from them.

Do not be afraid to say no when others are not treating you well.

Fear is the focus of ungodly minds; endeavour to rise above this so you can lead by example.

Allow others their right to choose, even if they choose to be unkind.

Live in the Moment for this moment is all there is.

Let the past sail by like clouds in the sky for these are memories of another time and to dwell on them is to miss out on your present moments.

The future is your creation, think before you create.

Life is meant to be lived.

Namaste