I had the best night's sleep last night that I have had in a long time. I dreamt of wonderful things and hope for my future. I am excited now that I am free of the pain and connection I allowed myself to endure for the last 2 months. This is the most amazing feeling I have ever known.

It is like being reborn, like seeing the world a new through the eyes of a higher knowledge that now everything will be alright. Once the bonds were broken, and I allowed myself to revel in the freedom only the Truth can bring, I know now how strong I really am; how much more powerful Love is than Fear. Love truly does conquer all when it is allowed to come to fruition. And this experience is one of the biggest blessings I have known thus far.

It is a boomerang effect of the Law of Attraction that what comes around, goes around. The fact that my needs have all been taken car of, that my desires from the Universe have all been realized, is a testement to the Power of who I really am. I take pride in my courage to face this daemon that has come into my life. This has grounded me to what is really of worth in my life.

My beautiful son. My wonderful creation of God. The reason for my life now and the only true happiness I could ever know in this world. Grattitude for family and friends surpasses my wildest expectations. Their love and acceptance of me and my son is appreciated from the depths of my soul.

What I once wanted for myself was a request of less than I am worth. At the time, I could not see passed the pain of loss to glimpse how much more Love was waiting for me. I held on to what was removed from me thinking that it would be better returned than lost. But the Universe knows everything at once; and in Infinate wisom, denied me so that the truth of what I was asking for could be revealed to me. That the truth of what I was trying to manifest was not a positive creation. So the manifestation was halted just long enough for me to be given a clear choice with all the facts of what I was asking for laid out to me. And when I saw it all, I thanked God for the delay.

Now I choose what is best for me, my son and for the furtherment of my pursuits to be a Loving Conscious Creator of Love for the Source. I have been given the tools and the confidence. I shall not squander these gifts.

Life is meant to be lived!

Namaste

This ego embraced has transformed the message of care;

as the sojourn of self-preservation arrives at reevaluation.

The fate of a God discussed at length by perspective

as refusal of pardon makes known its pride.

What once was believed as an expression of Love

now turns its face to reveal Destruction.

For this reason set before me,

I choose this path alone.

Though time may yield a blurring of Today,

as often it is said to do,

to allow the Attraction of Negativity in

is to realign my frequency with your Melancholy.

This time as well may prove to be finite.

The future is entrusted to God.

In this Moment of Time, the condition is such.

Perhaps you will finally become conscious.

For You

Namaste

Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.

--Thich Nhat Hanh

My brother and I have been having conversations about perspective. I suggested to him that it may be possible that personal prspective is all there is. I asked him, how can the Observer not observe?

My brother replied that he believes there are 3 versions of Reality; mine, yours and what really happened. He proported that since we use our perspective to evaluate a situation, and since our perspective is tainted with our emotional and intellectual beliefs, we could not be capable of objectivity. Or in other words, we cannot know perspective that is not clouded in our personal judgments.

I thought about this for a while. The possible ramifications were staggering to me. I realised that if this is true, then what we call Reality IS a creation of our personal beliefs about what really is happening. And when we want to know the truth, what we may really be asking is to more fully understand why we have chosen to view a specific event in a specific way?

As a parent of a small child, I want to meditate on this point because I feel that it may be important for how I am raising my son. As I teach him how and why, am I simply just changing his perspectie to meet mine? And if this is true, what personal beliefs am I tainting my perspective with so that I can even come to these specific conclusions?

As I explore this, I felt compelled to share with all of you.

Namaste

I am amazed and humbled every time I glance at my son. He is truly a gift from God.

As I am living and experiencing, my son is in a constant state of Observation. And through this, he is able to do things I did not think he could at a year of age. Without my having to show him, my son is speaking understandable words, attribute pictures to words, drinking from an actual cup (not a sippy cup) and eating complex foods simply for the experience. He runs around and can even climb a few steps. He has a rocking chair that I used as a child that he will climb into and sit; then he will rock the chair back and forth.

As a first time mother, I thought that I would have to show my son everything. But as a new Soul, my son's ability to be a Conscious Observer in his natural state is quite impressive. And as he watches everyone around him, I wonder if it is the mere act of mimicking that is the key? My son will pay close attention to something being done and then try to recreate it on his own. Most of this process is explained through developmental stages of child development, but I see the spiritual side of this phenomenon. I see his aura wiggle and brightly sprakle when he is able to use his body in the same ways he uses his mind.

These moments are what I live for. Brief instants of time when my son and I connect spiritually as well as share the gratification of success with each mile stone acheived.

Ahhh, the rewards of parenthood.

Makes my heart smile like nothing else.

Namaste

Over the course of the last two days, my ex and I reconciled. We came to an understanding of what lessons we had to learn individually. This brought us to an understanding of how much we love each other and want to be together.

These events are a manifestation come to pass. I am elated beyond words that we have reunited and will begin again as a couple and a family. We have decided to move together to a place where we can continue to explore our relationship with God and each other. This move is to Colorado, to live with an intentional community. We both agree that we are being led there by God. And this experience will be a wonderful source of knowledge for our son.

It is amazing to me how God can repair what we break. How He is able to rejoin two Souls in Love and create such a lasting peace admist our own trivial problems.

To say that I am happy is an understatement.

Love is a fruit in season at all times, and within reach of every hand.

--Mother Teresa

Life is meant to be Lived!!!

Namaste

Allow

The further open to each other we become,

the flow of acceptance also brings to the surface

all perceived obstacles in feeble resistance created.

Their earnest upset of darkness bourne,

their desolate misunderstanding of perception askew,

their mistrust of unknown potential,

their tender triggers point without cause.

Just as Love warms the Heart to bloom,

to arise by stimulation of the Flesh's release,

so Our pure openness initiates

the Healing of our emotional wounds,

the secret places where we are shut down,

where we live in fear and resist love.

Namaste

Perfection

Recognize not all you knew before,

as the Time for glancing back as passed.

Peer ahead as Sight allows the shadows

to make their presence accepted.

Creation has conceded to retain tangible form.

What IS has not been acknowledged.

For this and that clouds the vision

of all that ever could be.

See as a child through the mask worn

to perceive the Beauty awaiting.

Its Patience is infinite as the Heavens.

Its memory froth with Potential.

Its existence will always be.

Embrace requires no action of Flesh

as connection has never been severed.

Yet to know the calm of our Heart's rhythm

is to accept this expression

in Perfection of the Soul's manifestation.

Namaste

Here

In the midst of Ego she heard her voice,

the cries of needs that echoed with frenetic frequency.

In the quiet of stillness she felt her Soul

as whispers of a Peaceful wind.

As the flesh calls for maintenance,

her Spirit knows all that ought is Here.

The Mind creates from the mold of Manifestation,

the Soul Observes as the continuous flow.

With the reminiscence of Trepidation,

she places her foot onto the warm wood of the boat.

A whisper arrives from Nothing to caress her ear.

"I am here," the Loving Awareness implores.

She turns from the Past with respectful reverie,

accepting Here is all there is.

Like a former Companion,

these memories will wait for her return;

curled at the foot of false comfort.

She smiles for what was IS still.

What will be is Here.

Namaste

Delight could not illustrate

the hurried beat of my heart as I wait for you.

Time winks knowingly in sarcastic repose.

Hours in this day spent in meditation,

connection to all profoundly on my Mind.

Remembrances reflect Our language,

of a mutual destiny within grasp.

Change makes way a path,

each step reveals Perfection.

I, as the Observer,

appreciate this moment;

Love in True Expression.

Enlightened as chosen begets

Trust between our Souls.

How joyous is this participation?

How this place facilitates the Energy needed.

No difference, simply Acceptance of One.

As we Love the others,

we Love each other.


For You

Namaste

My Love for You is without end
as is the wisdom
of  the Soul's timelessness.  

Appreciation of these boundries  
enparted by distance,
concedes My anticipation of
physical attainment.  

In this expression of Love,
Spirit is not forsaken;
Our bodies will redefine worship
of the ardent priests of ancient days.  

As I know You in Pure Spiritual Love,
so shall I know You again
in amorous communion.  

For Our continuous gravitation
to these chosen forms 
is a testement to
Our Love for one another.


For You

Namaste

In disarray, I am rattled
from walking straight backward.
Having just recieved
these petty words misconstrude.
All about the emotions of another
and the sympathy I had offered.
Was I not expected
to be impartial
about my accpetance?
Your smell is intoxicating
like a sweet Port
on a summer's day.
That precocious grin 
of a little boy
having done something wrong.
Butterfly kisses make way
for longings of nights wasted
cloaked only by the dark.
When we lay spent
in the throws of laughter.
When I forgot
I had once held another
just as you hold me.
To feel that rising in us,
like the world has slowly vanished.
To forget all before you;
as I am the first Lover
you have ever known.
Come lay with me
and lie to me.
Tell me tales taller than the mountains...
of a time when I was all you needed.


Namaste